Drugs by J. R. Helton

Author:J. R. Helton
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Tags: Helton, Drugs, novel, Seven Stories Press, Burroughs, Junky, drug use, Robert Crumb
Publisher: Seven Stories Press
Published: 2012-05-15T04:00:00+00:00

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Within a couple years’ time, I was beginning to lose some of my usual self-imposed control, I was tearing through my 180-pill-a-month supply and running out by taking eight or ten, twelve, fifteen 10/500 Lortabs to get through the day. I often forgot how many I’d taken. The opiates were also leeching out of my system regularly at about four am which caused me to toss and turn and sweat and get the “jimmy legs” to a much greater degree than the ridiculously titled Restless Leg Syndrome advertised on television as yet another new symptom or “illness” for which to take state sanctioned drugs. As a child and a teen, I had a problem with restless energy in my arms and legs, but healthy exercise was all I needed to get rid of it then and now. The jimmy legs of withdrawal were different and the constant kicking and twitching was driving my girlfriend Patricia nuts to the point that either she or I went downstairs to sleep. One of the side effects of opiate withdrawal is also severe insomnia, along with your limbs jerking, your intestines twisting, the muscles, ligaments, and bones all churning and pulsing to push out past your flesh.

I was starting to get worried again about my supply, as it was also getting expensive to order my online meds. I was paying a couple hundred bucks for what was normally a ten dollar co-pay at my pharmacy. I was also starting to realize that Dr. Kungwale was on his way out as a drug source as he had become strict and questioning in giving me my scripts. He told me in an offhand manner on my very last visit to him that he was being investigated for some of his patients falsifying their prescriptions, copying them or altering them. He made sure not to insult me or even vaguely insinuate that I would do such a thing, which was correct; such tricks were for desperate, strung-out idiots who wanted to end up in jail.

What so many chronic illicit drug users fail to realize is that the whole drug system in America is set up to make you fail the urine test. A gigantic business on one side pushes the legal and illegal drugs, and a multi-billion dollar DEA and prison for profit industry on the other keeps any unlucky bastard who gets caught up in it entangled in an equally for profit legal system that would never let him go. I didn’t fit the drug addict loser profile, and Dr. Kungwale knew it. He truly wanted to keep me as a client, but just one look at the other three, poor, lower working-class, sniffling and fidgeting patients in his waiting room told me that I wanted nothing to do with this guy who’d always given me a bad vibe anyway. It was time to cut him loose.

To make up for this supply loss, I was forced to ask Dr. Garza for more pills than the two a day he’d been giving me for a few years now.

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